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Apr. 28th, 2007 | 06:25 pm

Today I'm feeling stressed. Mum is the main cause, oh and the stupid fucking hairdresser forgot her curling tongs so i will have to get it done friday instead. I can't be arsed to have a trial because i know it will look okay on prom night.. but i have to. I can't even get on with my work when mum is in the house! So today has just been wasted.

Okay, imagine your mother poking her head in your door every time she walks past. Annoying right? Well i locked my door and OMFGZ its a crime. "All you want to do is lock yourself away, I'm only checking if you're okay." Yes i fucking do want to be alone and no, you're just a nosey bitch.

Steve is in brizzle today :( least he's having a good time!

"One fluid gesture, like stepping back in time.
Trapped in amber, petrified.
And still not satisfied"

My name, in a placebo song! xD

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Feb. 22nd, 2007 | 12:48 am

"I only go out to get me
a fresh appetite for being alone."

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Why am i so worried about what people think...

Feb. 18th, 2007 | 04:41 pm

but right.. someone UNDERSTANDSSSS

"nah it's just that most girls are fucking immature little whores, and most guys immature little twats, but that's because i've matured faster cos of my childhood and that, so i see people our age as immature, so your decent but by doing something that say, becky would do it's just a conflict of norms"

and then i got reeally confused on msn, yeah right.. cos it's not really talking, or typing, and yet your thinking what to type so it is kinda talking. but yeah, whatever to that theory

um.. meeting steve tomorrow... fucking butterflys.. i feel quite sick aswell .. ah well.. WOOO 2 no school for a week. harharhar

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Meeting steve...

Feb. 13th, 2007 | 09:17 pm

tomorrow night.


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what the helll....

Feb. 12th, 2007 | 12:26 am

i dunno whether to
1.go to bed
2. put a pizza on and get beer
3. cook remains of curry and get beer
4. wank off in my face whilst singing the national anthem and then put on my army gear
[amburr] says:
definatly 4
that was the only one you werent allowed to choose

moving on.

I went for a drive with a guy that i met on halloween.. i cried.. he pulled over and hugged me until i felt better.

As soon as i get home i called steve.. have a 2 hour convo on the phone.. wtf i know, im usually shy!! and now i cant sleep and i dont even care that there is a strong possabilty of me being twatted tomorrow by becky.

DOnt know why.. or how.. but tonight has changed me.. and im finally ready to meet him. W00T FOR ME.

this is a mess and im not making much sense but im too happy to care.. i just wanted to record this haha. somewhere.. noone could find on my comp.

i cant beleive tonight.. happened.

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Feb. 9th, 2007 | 08:58 pm

Alright, well this week has been weird. Monday Becky ignored me for no reason. Tuesday I didn't go to school. Wednesday... I can't really remember. Thursday SNOW DAYY and college open evening! And today I hung around the boys and had a snow fight with Katrina at lunch.

Seeing the college and talking to the teacher dude is making school even worse because I really want to get to college!! Sick and tired of my "friends" I don’t even respect them or look up to them like I did with charlotte and Alex. They are going to end up bums and keep making comments about where I live. So what, I live in a big house. Doesn’t make me a snob! At least I’m going to get somewhere in life instead of become a druggie. I really need to meet older people. I can actually have a conversation with them!

Anyway, I’m trying to stay happy so... um... Not much to say about happiness... apart from Steve. The only thing keeping me sane at the moment is talking to Steve, except I’m scared about meeting him... But I’m sure I will overcome that when I’ve started college and gain more self-confidence. I'm already more confident about things which is good.

I hope next week is better.

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fridayyyy :]

Jan. 19th, 2007 | 05:16 pm

I kind of... punched someone today. I have never hit anyone before... not properly. I left dents in his face, and I’m not strong at all! Maybe wearing rings is a bad idea. I hate to say it but it felt so good seeing him in pain. His name is Jamie and he is kind of new to our school, he is a proper chav though! He thought I’d just let him try to trip me up, and call me an emo, but I didn’t. I annoyed his brother also because I hate OTT camp boys that are just looking for attention. Aren’t I a bitch?

Sam, Ben and the other Ben were still being all weird to me today, I was not amused. I think they think I’m easy and I’m totally NOT. They seem to find it funny that I hold hands with Shelley too… wtf! They are just jealous. Shelley is sleeping over tomorrow night. I asked her to prom and she said yes!

My diet is getting worse and worse, today I had CHIPS! Then came home and ate chocolate! I’m never going to lose weight, NEVER! Tomorrow Shelley will be like ew your fat and then I will cry. Nah... She’s lovely and I doubt she would even care. I still want to lose weight though.

I’m off to untangle my hair extensions now

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Jan. 15th, 2007 | 10:51 pm

Today Shelley, Ben and Charlie didn’t go to school. Lot of other people didn’t either... so it was kind of quiet in lessons. Quiet until I got into the last lesson of the day, P.E.

We were playing badminton and I made the mistake of being on a team with Sam, against Zack and Ben (different Ben). Sam hit a shuttlecock at my arse! It throbbed for AGES! All of them where hyper… Ben kept winking at me and Sam kept sticking his shirt over his head when he scored a point then hugging me. It was such a weird P.E lesson! At the end we all had to write down teams for a tournament next lesson. Sam didn’t just write Sam + Amber, he wrote Sam loves Amber and half the class looked at me, including the teacher. I walked out. How annoying.

Now Ben… is txting me. “So lil miss tight buns, how is your sexy self?” Why won’t they go awayyyy… I’m skiving next P.E lesson and science... Just so Sam can’t touch me. I mean, doesn’t he get the message... I DUMPED him a long time ago.

Um... Rant over?

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Jan. 6th, 2007 | 12:33 pm
music: Darkest Hour

A friend found this program that has sheep running across the screen!

Sheepy yawning

Dead sheepy

So if you want sheep running across your screen or bleating at you on the hour every hour then you can download it here: http://www.lcfgames.co.uk/sheep.zip

You can run the program more than once, the more times you run it the more sheep you will get. To bring up the menu hold down Ctrl and double click on the sheep. To get rid of a sheep simply double right click on it.

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Jan. 4th, 2007 | 11:03 pm
mood: weirdweird
music: A Trigger Full Of Promises - Walls Of Jericho

My tummy really fucking hurts. I asked my mum how she would react to me getting my nipples peirced and her faced dropped. It was a classic.

I really need to join more groups, get more mates on this thing because it is actually pretty good.

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