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Jan. 3rd, 2007 | 05:24 pm

I had a bath for the first time in like a year today [No, I'm not dirty I just shower everyday] and also, I'm wearing my baby doll t-shirt which I hardly ever wear even though I love it. Why am I acting odd? I don’t know. Already the 3rd and I go back to school on the 8th. How rubbish is that. I still have homework to do and to finish a plan! Becky should be sleeping over tomorrow… wayhey! But then that means time will go even faster.

I can hear my mum doing housework. I’m sure she’s trying to make me feel guilty or something because I offer to help and she doesn’t want me to. The weather is worse than ever today and I’m cold. Why can’t they put the heating on! My right hand is always stone cold after using my computer, how retarded. I guess it’s because it’s my mouse hand… but it’s kind of worrying. My feet are cold 99% of the time too, even if the rest of my body is really warm. I think I should exercise… to get my circulation going or something [And to loose weight] Christmas is gay, it always makes me fat. It’s all gone to my thighs because I had to squeeze into my skinny jeans today.

Desperate housewives on TV tonight!
I might MSN sometime…
But I’m not sure

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Jan. 2nd, 2007 | 12:46 am

I'm a fuck up

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Jan. 1st, 2007 | 09:14 pm

I started the New Year in Becky’s house, drunk. Woke up in her room at half 12 with no hangover! I feel like it’s the start of another very dull year. I know college is just round the corner but I have a feeling this year will be crappy. It’s only a week before I go back to school too.

Today I went to see Casino Royal with Gemma and parents. It was a great movie! I’m so tired... haven’t been on MSN for a while. Well it feels like that. I’m fed up of it so I might not go on for a while longer.

I feel so happy that I stayed round Becky’s house because it feels like we have got closer. She helped me take my hair extensions out so I could sleep and forgot how different short hair makes me look. I hate not wearing them in front of people but it didn’t mind so much with her. We ended up talking about sex for a few hours then went to sleep. She told me stuff no one else knows… not even her best friend. I so wish I lived in Bassett. Purton makes it harder for me to see her, and other people. I would probably see Chaz more if I lived there too.

Ahh, sister is nagging me to play Mario Kart with her.


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A quiz or 2

Dec. 30th, 2006 | 03:25 pm

Your Aura is Green

Your Personality: You are a high acheiver who is very competitive. You're bound to reach your goals, no matter how lofty.

You in Love: Picky with high standards, it's hard to find your match. You need a man as driven as you are!

Your Career: You need a high profile, challenging career to satisfy you. Consider finance, sales, or running your own company.

Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Princess Cut Diamond!

That doesn't mean you're a princess though. Far from it :-)
You're modern, sleek, and more than a little bold at times.
You prefer that your old fashioned ring fit into your modern life.
A streamlined princess cut ring is like a work of architecture and 100% perfect for you.

You Are a Normal Girl

You are 50% Good and 50% Bad
Sure you've pulled some bad girl stunts in your past.
But these days, you're (mostly) a good girl.

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Dec. 17th, 2006 | 05:23 pm

So.. Becky and a few people got drunk on a night that i couldn't go out. They decided to ring me and shout "RANDY WE LOVE YOU" in a sarcastic way down the phone. I hung up and let them ring without answering about 5 times. It's sad how when they are having a "good time" all they can think about is me. And also its fucking pathetic how they have to be bicthes without having a reason to be bitchy to a person.

I made a video of myself ^^ because I’m the ultimate greatness. But in this video I showed my sarcastic side. Oh yes! I feel like posting it on a site where I know they will see it, but then again. That is showing how much it bothered me that they rang me. I will just keep it and look back on it and laugh.

And another thing, I needed someone to talk to after they did this so I rang charlotte but she was too busy with Sam and told me to txt her. THE CHEEK!! In the end I spoke to Katrina and found out they did it to her but WORSE by actually calling her stuff. They are so fucking immature it’s unbelievable!! GOD!

Got to go watch my sister do a show thing... Gymnastics again. It's getting stupid. I'm not going to help the fuckers out if they ask me too because they always put me on the door collecting money or some shit. I’m surprised they make me do it because I would have thought i would scare people away, obviously not though. Maybe I should wear a ridiculous amount of eyeliner and see if they still ask me. Even if they do I’m saying no. I'm not in the mood.

And also i just yelled at my mother for being pathetic and now she’s saying I’m on dads side and blah. SHE IS ALWAYS THE VICTIM. Mum is in a stress because she knows dad hasn’t got her anything for Christmas but it’s hard for men. Plus, she’s not even said what she wants!!! It’s impossible and she’s stupid.

I am angrier tonight than I have been the past year put together. I'm never angry

This is crap.

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Wishing for change

Dec. 12th, 2006 | 07:49 pm

I woke up a little grumpy, a little excited, a little upset, and a little fearful. All felt for different reasons, but all felt equally. I felt excited because I wanted to start a new day without feeling miserable. I was also going to meet charlotte at lunch and have a proper chat. This was great because we rarely speak to each other face to face, yet we talk an awful lot. We can relate to each other.

I feel out of place at school, always have done but its more apparent now. I have friends. Only a handful though. I can’t talk to them like I can with charlotte. To put it blunt, my girlfriends are immature. What I can’t comprehend is that they are still so happy being at school. Since the start of year 10 I wanted out. Not because I am lazy or I cant hack it, but because I would be happier in an environment where it was more relaxed. Teachers simply do not give you respect. Not long until college so I guess I will just have to ride it out.

I have learnt a few things in the past few weeks. 15-year-old boys tend to have one thing on their mind and do whatever they can to get it. Charlotte finally told me the truth about her incident when she was 13. I wanted to cry. I was her best friend and never realized why she had bruises. I knew she got intimate with him but I thought she had a say in what they where doing. What scares me is that one of my more immature friends, really likes this boy now and I can’t tell her about what he did. Yes she older and stronger but I dread to think what would happen if he got her alone. There is Ben also, that has no respect for girls. I can think of a bunch of boys my age that have done disgusting things.

Moving on from how rubbish it is to be stuck in school. It’s Christmas so soon, only thing I am truly looking forward to now. Dad got me a new job. A bit of extra money around Christmas is really good!

That’s all for now

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Everythings dead

Dec. 2nd, 2006 | 06:02 pm
mood: hungryhungry
music: Sorry You're Not a Winner - Enter Shikari

..on animal crossing :(

OMG enter shikari is the best band everrr like metal and techno :o

Profile Views:

how annoying when half those views don't comment and shit, every time i go on someones profile i comment them or something! well like 99% of the time.

Yay curry soon, i'm well hungry.

omg how lush.. is this shoe..

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Dickensian evening

Dec. 2nd, 2006 | 02:53 pm
mood: cheerfulcheerful
music: Rihanna - Pon De Replay

It was Dickensian evening last night, i knew it would be boring but i went anyway. So there was me, Becky, Shelley and Vicky bored after like half an hour. The police where everywhere so there was no chance of us getting drunk. After a while we went back to Vicky's house and WOW her dad has this music room with all this music equipment 0.0 and his speakers where fucking HUGEEE!! xD omg we actually went mental with the bass and shiz... the floor and walls where shaking more than i've ever seen. Becky was acting so horny LOL. Then vicky found her weed W00TTT! Wasn't enough to get us stoned but it was groovy. We where watching TV and guess who won im a celeb get me out of here... MATT!! omgosh hes lush, so glad he won. Yeah so overall, not a bad night!

Today i've been downloading music i probably would not listen to... guess its because i'm so happy ^^ I so have to go on AC today, i haven't been on it for like a WEEK!!!

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Nov. 30th, 2006 | 03:51 pm

You Have A Type A- Personality

You are one of the most balanced people around
Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want
You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you.

When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back
Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love!
You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds

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the most boring day of my life

Nov. 19th, 2006 | 07:47 pm
mood: accomplishedaccomplished
music: D4L ft. Busta Rhymes - Laffy Taffy (Remix)

today was blah, didn't even put makeup on. I feel super ghey. Went on animal crossing for a little while because coursework was getting too much, it was fun because i actually used my WiFi.

36 days to christmas!!

rofl i can hear mum singing all opera styleee

one of my main myspace commenters now
shes sleeping over this weekend w00p
after studio
so excited

Woah kinda planned really early, lol

dads coming home from wales soon..
i hate wales
they are all inbreds

blimey, i have just noticed, i have 4557 profile veiws on myspace
not half as many comments though =[

im in the mood
for a fat


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